Tossed

Do your emotions rule your head or does your head rule your emotions? I struggle with this constantly. Most often, I allow my emotions to overrule my head. I said recently that I can’t get my heart to believe what my head already knows. That’s been true of me for a long time, and I’m really kind of tired of it. My emotions fluctuate like the tide. I am tossed about, unstable and floundering. I have finally overcome this in my relationship with God. For as long as I can remember I would say that I *knew* God loved me, but somehow I couldn’t get it past my chin and down deep into my heart. When I attended the Revolve Tour in February with my daughter, a healing began in my relationship with God, I finally let it get past my chin and sink deep down into my soul. I am loved, I am worthy, and I am whole.


There are other relationships where I’m not so good at this yet. I’m practicing, really trying to stop listening to the fickleness of my heart and let my head rule a little bit more of my life. It’s hard, the heart is so convincing and pulls on the gut and wrenches the spirit. But, I don’t want to be tossed about. I don’t want to constantly battle the overwhelming emotions that compete for my attention. I want to be in control of them, not let them control me. For someone with my temperament, that’s a tall order, but with God’s help, I can be in control of this aspect of my life in all relationships.

James 1:5-8
5 If you need wisdom, ask our generous God, and he will give it to you. He will not rebuke you for asking. 6 But when you ask him, be sure that your faith is in God alone. Do not waver, for a person with divided loyalty is as unsettled as a wave of the sea that is blown and tossed by the wind. 7 Such people should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. 8 Their loyalty is divided between God and the world, and they are unstable in everything they do.