Re-release.

"I feel...thin. Sort of stretched, like...butter scraped over too much bread." -Bilbo Baggins

The rigor with which I've set my schedule for the next month or two is starting to scare me. I'm starting to be very nervous about a couple of the projects I'm in charge of. Part of this is my perfectionism rearing it's ugly head. Needing to have everything go perfectly, scripted, precise. Part of it is because I have a certain amount of control over the success of these projects, where in other areas of my life right now, I have absolutely NO control, and that in and of itself wears on me.

Someone told me today, that I'd get through it all, because I'm strong. Right now, my "muscles" are really sore and fatigued. Probably because I'm playing tug-of-war with God, in whose capable hands I've already released many of these worries. Apparently, His arms are much stronger than mine, and I'm fighting a losing battle. One that will only leave me torn. I guess it's time to re-release some of the things I keep trying to take back. Forgive me.

1 Peter 5:7 (The Message) God's strong hand is on you; he'll promote you at the right time. Live carefree before God; he is most careful with you.